Portia Andrea Passaro

hi my name is toni i lost my little girl portia on the 16th of april 2007 she was my first and only
child when me and my partner found out i was preg we were over joyed and not once did i have to
question weither we wanted her or not she was a much wanted baby even tho we we were not trying we
were very happy the first time we see our baby was at our first scan were i found out i was 7weeks 6
days still very early so all we did see was a blob but she was our blub. the second time we got
the see her was at my 12 week scan which i couldnt belive the change she was actually a baby if
you know wat i mean and she was turning and kicking about i still couldnt feel her but could see
on the screen well the thoird time i see her was on my 20 week scan were after weeks of me and
my partner whose name is andre after weeks of making up our mind on weither to find out the sex we
decided we would well the little bugger had her legs crossed so was told if i really wanted to know
i could make another appoinment for two weeks time so of course i did another chance to see my baby
of course i said yea well when we bk we were told it was a girl and i was over the moon her dad was
too but the first thing he said was shes never havibg a boyfriend ? well little did we now she
wouldnt any way she was due on the 19th of april and on the 14th it was my 21st birthday and i
started to get a little niggle in the bottom of my bk and so i phoned the hospital they told me to
stop worrying and to take a bath to relax so i did and went to bed and still had the pain i had
it all night saturday sunday and monday morning it got worse so i phoned the hospital again and
that when my contraction started and still i was told not to worry bcuz she was my first it would
be a long labour so to atay at home so thats wat i did on the fourth phone call i was in full
blown labour and in a lot of pain well my mum phoned the hospital and she was still told if her
waters havent broken then theres not much we can do but my mum said no im bringing her down so when
we got there they started to settle me down and after about 30 mins the midwife finally came in but
then said im sorry but you dont fit our criteria so i was nagry bcuz i was in pain they still
hadent checked my babys heartbeat so i was made to walk 5cm dilated and in full labour to the next
ward were on my arrival they checked her heart beat and it was found to be very low and from this
point on it was all a blur i was rust in for a emergency c section and when i woke i was asking
were my baby was this was were the nurse left the room and my mum eneter she looked destroyed and
she looked and me and said im so sorry babe she didnt make it and i remember saying no i felt her
moving this morning no get my baby and at this point my partner entered the room and i just knew
then that she was telling the truth by his tear soaked face i screamed and houled like a dog and
that was when my brother brought my beatiful baby girl in to the room and i felt my heart explode
she was perfect she had loads of hair and looked just like her daddy in every way possilbe even down
tp the dimple on her chin we named her portia and had her weighed she was 7pnd 8ounz she was wat
the doctor called a fresh stillborn i never got to hear her cry or see wat colour her eyes were she
was my world and i had so many plans for her i miss her with all my heart but am very very glad i
got to hold her and to say goodbye