| Location | Gloucester |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 16/04/2007 |
| Date of Death | 16/04/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,082 since 10/08/2007 |
| Creator |
hi my name is toni i lost my little girl portia on the 16th of april 2007 she was my first and only
child when me and my partner found out i was preg we were over joyed and not once did i have to
question weither we wanted her or not she was a much wanted baby even tho we we were not trying we
were very happy the first time we see our baby was at our first scan were i found out i was 7weeks 6
days still very early so all we did see was a blob but she was our blub. the second time we got
the see her was at my 12 week scan which i couldnt belive the change she was actually a baby if
you know wat i mean and she was turning and kicking about i still couldnt feel her but could see
on the screen well the thoird time i see her was on my 20 week scan were after weeks of me and
my partner whose name is andre after weeks of making up our mind on weither to find out the sex we
decided we would well the little bugger had her legs crossed so was told if i really wanted to know
i could make another appoinment for two weeks time so of course i did another chance to see my baby
of course i said yea well when we bk we were told it was a girl and i was over the moon her dad was
too but the first thing he said was shes never havibg a boyfriend ? well little did we now she
wouldnt any way she was due on the 19th of april and on the 14th it was my 21st birthday and i
started to get a little niggle in the bottom of my bk and so i phoned the hospital they told me to
stop worrying and to take a bath to relax so i did and went to bed and still had the pain i had
it all night saturday sunday and monday morning it got worse so i phoned the hospital again and
that when my contraction started and still i was told not to worry bcuz she was my first it would
be a long labour so to atay at home so thats wat i did on the fourth phone call i was in full
blown labour and in a lot of pain well my mum phoned the hospital and she was still told if her
waters havent broken then theres not much we can do but my mum said no im bringing her down so when
we got there they started to settle me down and after about 30 mins the midwife finally came in but
then said im sorry but you dont fit our criteria so i was nagry bcuz i was in pain they still
hadent checked my babys heartbeat so i was made to walk 5cm dilated and in full labour to the next
ward were on my arrival they checked her heart beat and it was found to be very low and from this
point on it was all a blur i was rust in for a emergency c section and when i woke i was asking
were my baby was this was were the nurse left the room and my mum eneter she looked destroyed and
she looked and me and said im so sorry babe she didnt make it and i remember saying no i felt her
moving this morning no get my baby and at this point my partner entered the room and i just knew
then that she was telling the truth by his tear soaked face i screamed and houled like a dog and
that was when my brother brought my beatiful baby girl in to the room and i felt my heart explode
she was perfect she had loads of hair and looked just like her daddy in every way possilbe even down
tp the dimple on her chin we named her portia and had her weighed she was 7pnd 8ounz she was wat
the doctor called a fresh stillborn i never got to hear her cry or see wat colour her eyes were she
was my world and i had so many plans for her i miss her with all my heart but am very very glad i
got to hold her and to say goodbye
hello my jellt tot how are you on this chilly day make sure you put your coat on and put sum war clothes on be good and play nice with all the other angel babies play nice with isaac and send me and tell isaac to send his mummy sum kisses down sum lovely angel floaty kisses look after all the new angels and make sure there okay cuz they might be missing there mummy me and daddy have got a new puppy called fudge and naughty alfie wont let her be in the family he keeps trying to bite her so she stayed at nannies last night nanny has fallen in love with her any way be a good girl today and tell every 1 in the cloudsup abovethat your mummy said hi love you lots jelly tots love your mummy daddy alfie and puppy fudgexxxxxxxxx
hi my baby girl mummy is sorry that she hasent been in today or last night i have been having trouble with the computer i felt guilty cuz i always say goodnight and morning to my baby girl, daddy brought mummy a puppy and she is lovely we called her fudge its not the same as wat it would be like to have you baby girl me and daddy went to your garden and put sum lovely purple and pink and yellow n white flowers made sure it was all tidy hunny yet again within a week there has been another little baby that has passed look for them and make sure there not scared hunny they might be missing ther mummy i love you baby girl play nice i love you and miss you soo much hunny love your mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello my baby girl hope you have been a good girl today and played nicely wih al the new babies that have joined you there was a little boy today on the news that was very badly treated by his daddys girlfriend so find him and make sure heis no longer scared and tell him he is free now look ater him hunny he needs sum cuddles nd kisses good girl mummy loves you so much hunny i really do wish that sumtimes im gonna wake up and its all been a bad dream and i will wake up and you will still be in my belly waking me up kicking butmummy would of alrady of had you by now you will nearly be 5 months old baby girl your getting really big i just hope you started to look like me cuz you looked just like your daddy when you were born sleep tight my baby girl dont let the bed bugs bite . all the other angels and you snuggle up and keep warm make sure you have got your blankie cuz its a bit chilly good night my hunny bunny i love you xxxx
Still Born
They labeled you a still born,
And yes you are to me,
STILL BORN our beautiful baby girl
To your father and to me.
You were still born into so much love,
You were still born with so much want.
You were still born so tiny and so perfect,
You were Still Born,
and the fact that you were stillborn will always haunt
You were still born into my womb,
throughout the nine splendid months we had.
You were still born into our family,
to Mommy, & to Dad.
You were still born into our hearts,
with dreams so big and wide,
You were still born into our arms,
we held you and we cried.
You were still born into this world,
in which you stayed not long at all,
You were still born, and although,
we’ll never hear you laugh or see you crawl,
You ARE still born, and for that,
God we will thank you after all.
hell my baby girl its mommy again i have just lite a candle for you but you cnt write a lot on there so thought i would leave you a message , sorry i havent been in to day but i have been with nanny and i went early this morning i hope you had alovely day and wore your coat this morning cuz it was a bit chilly andi hope you were playing in the clouds with all the other angels an sharing toys . miss you so much baby girl ad i love you more than any words can describe i from the moment i saw you i had this feeling i had nver felt b4 and that feeling hasent left me since and i have this over whelmingfeeling evey time i thinl about you and i think about you every waking minute of the day you are never far away from m thoughts and i long to hold you again and smell your smell bt i understand i have to exept that you are in a better place and are having fun i love you baby girl go to bed like a good girl and sleep tight goodnight slep tight dont let bed bugs bite good night hunny bunny xxxxxxxx
good morning my baby i hope you have a nice day playing and that you got ya wellies on cuz its raining and mummy dnt want you to get wet and put a nice warm coat on and play in the puddles with al the other babies mummy misses you loads and loads and i love you more than words can say my jelly tot look after the new babies an make sure there not scared and give them lots of kisses and cuddles love yo lots jelly tots love your mummy xxxxxxxx be a good girl and watch over your nanny and send her sum floaty kisses cuz she is atyour great uncles funeral today love you baby girl xxx
hello my baby girl its your mummy again i miss you so much baby girl its breaks my heart every day but i have come to realise that you are still here but your an angel and you are still round me i can just tell little things get moved and that i hope it is you baby girl ,hope your happy up on the clouds and playing with all the other babies and all the new 1s cuz baby girl there are a lot of new 1s where you are look after them and give them loads of kisses and cuddles and share your toys ,your uncle joined you not long ago hope you have found each other love you lots jelly tots all my love your mummy xxx god blessxxxxxxxxxxxxx love you baby girl hope you have a nice day xx
hello baby girl its your mummy again just come in to say be good and play nice and have a good day mummy and daddy will be going to your garden 2morrow and just checking on it and putting sum new flowers you stone will be paid for soon hunny i will be so glad when it is hunny be good and give all the new angels and big kiss and cuddles so there not lonely love you lots jelly tots see ya later aligater bye bye have fun and like i said be good xxxxxlove mummy xxxx
hello baby its your mummy again i hope your playing nice and had a good nice sleep look after the new angels that have joined you baby there a 4 more where you are buried hunny look after them and share all your toys mummy sum times wonders weither you would look like her know cuz when you were born you were like your dad i carried you and you come out looking like ya daddy but mummy thought you were the most beatiful baby i have ever seen and you will always be the most beautiful baby to me i love you soooo much baby girl love you lots jelly tots love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello my baby gril i love you mummy went to see the consultant today abay girl and like he promised there have been changes and thats because of you and mummy and daddy no 1 will have to go through wat we did hunny they have opened a new ward especally for people who have lost little angels so you dnt have to see other new borns or hear them crying?theres a specail place were you can say your last goodbyes and thats good baby mummy is glad that a little good has come out of it but mummy is sad cuz we had to loose you in order for them to do that love you lots baby girl jelly tots xxxsleep tigh xxxxxxlove your mummy
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