| Location | Gloucester |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 16/04/2007 |
| Date of Death | 16/04/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,082 since 10/08/2007 |
| Creator |
hi my name is toni i lost my little girl portia on the 16th of april 2007 she was my first and only
child when me and my partner found out i was preg we were over joyed and not once did i have to
question weither we wanted her or not she was a much wanted baby even tho we we were not trying we
were very happy the first time we see our baby was at our first scan were i found out i was 7weeks 6
days still very early so all we did see was a blob but she was our blub. the second time we got
the see her was at my 12 week scan which i couldnt belive the change she was actually a baby if
you know wat i mean and she was turning and kicking about i still couldnt feel her but could see
on the screen well the thoird time i see her was on my 20 week scan were after weeks of me and
my partner whose name is andre after weeks of making up our mind on weither to find out the sex we
decided we would well the little bugger had her legs crossed so was told if i really wanted to know
i could make another appoinment for two weeks time so of course i did another chance to see my baby
of course i said yea well when we bk we were told it was a girl and i was over the moon her dad was
too but the first thing he said was shes never havibg a boyfriend ? well little did we now she
wouldnt any way she was due on the 19th of april and on the 14th it was my 21st birthday and i
started to get a little niggle in the bottom of my bk and so i phoned the hospital they told me to
stop worrying and to take a bath to relax so i did and went to bed and still had the pain i had
it all night saturday sunday and monday morning it got worse so i phoned the hospital again and
that when my contraction started and still i was told not to worry bcuz she was my first it would
be a long labour so to atay at home so thats wat i did on the fourth phone call i was in full
blown labour and in a lot of pain well my mum phoned the hospital and she was still told if her
waters havent broken then theres not much we can do but my mum said no im bringing her down so when
we got there they started to settle me down and after about 30 mins the midwife finally came in but
then said im sorry but you dont fit our criteria so i was nagry bcuz i was in pain they still
hadent checked my babys heartbeat so i was made to walk 5cm dilated and in full labour to the next
ward were on my arrival they checked her heart beat and it was found to be very low and from this
point on it was all a blur i was rust in for a emergency c section and when i woke i was asking
were my baby was this was were the nurse left the room and my mum eneter she looked destroyed and
she looked and me and said im so sorry babe she didnt make it and i remember saying no i felt her
moving this morning no get my baby and at this point my partner entered the room and i just knew
then that she was telling the truth by his tear soaked face i screamed and houled like a dog and
that was when my brother brought my beatiful baby girl in to the room and i felt my heart explode
she was perfect she had loads of hair and looked just like her daddy in every way possilbe even down
tp the dimple on her chin we named her portia and had her weighed she was 7pnd 8ounz she was wat
the doctor called a fresh stillborn i never got to hear her cry or see wat colour her eyes were she
was my world and i had so many plans for her i miss her with all my heart but am very very glad i
got to hold her and to say goodbye
hello my princess i havent left you a tribute for a while now so i thought i would hunny i hope you are okay up there and being a good girl ? mummy wishes the was sum way of making sure your happy so if you can do that baby girl mummy would like that? mummys friend your god mum has brought you a lovely cross to put in your garden just until your stone is paided for which will be very soon but mummy doesnt know how long or weither they have already made it or weither i will have to wait i am hoping it will be done already bcuz its gonna be beautiful and mummy cnt wait for it to come baby girl have a lovely day hunny playing with isaac and your ova angel friends and make sure if it gets a bit cold go and put a coat on i love you more than wrds can describei have never felt the feeing that rushed over me from the moment i saw you and that feeling has never left me hunny i love you lots my jelly tots make sure you ask your nanny to do you hair i bet it has got longer now all my love your mummy xxxxx
Hi there baby girl. Send ur mummy and daddy lots of floaty angel kisses, especially mummy as she needs them right now. Hope isaac and his grandad are looking after u princess, i'm sure they are. Goodnight lil babe. All my love, sam. xx
hello my princess , i hope you have been a good girl today
and been playing nice with all the ova angels and isaac , me and daddy brought you up sum nice flowers today
and we brought you a new wind mill and sum solar lights hope you like them baby girl ? so your not in the dark now even tho sum of the ova babies have lights you do now hunny bunny ? i hope you ate all your dinner and tea like a good gal and are sharing all your toys with all the new babies make sure you still remember hunny that mummy and daddy think of you every minute of the day and wish you were here with us all the time i would never let you out my sight or put you down , be a good girl now and go to be its sunday and you have got to have a bath put sum nice warm jim jams on and go to bye byes love you lots jely tots all my love your mummy xxxxxxx
Good night Portia, just to let you know, mummy will be in later as she has gone out, but im sure she will come and say goodnight to u lil baby girl. You are so special to her, but you know that already. I know that u are being taken care of, up in the clouds, cos Isaac's grandad and his auntie will be looking after you as well.
Any way baby girl, i best be going now, but i will be in tomorrow to say good mornin to you.
Sleep peacefully lil princess, all my love n hugs n kisses, sam.xxxxxxxxxxxx
hello my bby girl i just said good night to you but thought i would write you a tribute because you can really write alot on te candles , i hope you have been a good girl and have been playing nicely with all the other angel babies and makng sure all the new 1s are no longer scared or alone hunny be like your mummy and help them out , i often sit here wondering wat you would be like now baby girl would you finally start looking like me or still be the spit of your daddy i bet you would be still like your daddy theres no changing that i carried you and you came out just like him lol but i dnt mind hunny thats wat made you my portias all those specail things i like tothinkof you being able to walk and play around but i dnt know i suppose you are an angel so you would fly around and watch over me daddy nanny and your uncles mummy is being kept awake at the moment not buy a baby i wish it was i dnt think i would mind then but buy a puppy callled fudge she is a lil fluff ball and she is very naughty at night and dosent sleep she keeps mummy up all night wantng to play any way baby girl it is late so good night sleep tight love you lots jelly tots all my love hugs and kisses your mummy and daddy xxxxxxx
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Ask My Mum How She Is
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say 'I'm alright.'
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
'I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping.'
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, 'You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told.
My Mum is a Survivor
My Mum is a survivor,
Or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night,
When all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night,
And go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her,
To help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach,
That never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mum,
Who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see,
Tears flowing from her eyes.
My mum tries to cope with death,
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows,
It is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mum,
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels,
Protect me forevermore.
I know that doesn't help her...
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels,
My surviving mum has a broken heart,
That time won't ever heal.
My Dad is a Survivor
My dad is a survivor too
which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.
But, I walk with my dad each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others;
He cries when no one's around.
I watch him sit up late at night
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.
My dad is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all!
But, there are times when he needs to cry...
Please be there when he falls.
Hold his hand or pat his shoulder...
And tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad,
Help him mourn in his own way.
Now, as I watch over my precious dad
from the Heavens up above...
I'm so proud that he's a survivor...
hello my baby girl girl my beatiful princess i have missed you these last few days i have been having my hair dne hunny i hope you have been being good n that you have been going to bed lie a good girl and snuggling up to all the new babies n making sure there not scared from being away from there mummy have a lovely day hunny bunny and play nice i love you soo much and i miss you more and more every day iwish you never would of gone hunny send me sum angel ksses down and be a good girl ilove you lots jelly tots all my love hugs and kisses mummy be good baby girl xxx
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