| Location | Gloucester |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 16/04/2007 |
| Date of Death | 16/04/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,082 since 10/08/2007 |
| Creator |
hi my name is toni i lost my little girl portia on the 16th of april 2007 she was my first and only
child when me and my partner found out i was preg we were over joyed and not once did i have to
question weither we wanted her or not she was a much wanted baby even tho we we were not trying we
were very happy the first time we see our baby was at our first scan were i found out i was 7weeks 6
days still very early so all we did see was a blob but she was our blub. the second time we got
the see her was at my 12 week scan which i couldnt belive the change she was actually a baby if
you know wat i mean and she was turning and kicking about i still couldnt feel her but could see
on the screen well the thoird time i see her was on my 20 week scan were after weeks of me and
my partner whose name is andre after weeks of making up our mind on weither to find out the sex we
decided we would well the little bugger had her legs crossed so was told if i really wanted to know
i could make another appoinment for two weeks time so of course i did another chance to see my baby
of course i said yea well when we bk we were told it was a girl and i was over the moon her dad was
too but the first thing he said was shes never havibg a boyfriend ? well little did we now she
wouldnt any way she was due on the 19th of april and on the 14th it was my 21st birthday and i
started to get a little niggle in the bottom of my bk and so i phoned the hospital they told me to
stop worrying and to take a bath to relax so i did and went to bed and still had the pain i had
it all night saturday sunday and monday morning it got worse so i phoned the hospital again and
that when my contraction started and still i was told not to worry bcuz she was my first it would
be a long labour so to atay at home so thats wat i did on the fourth phone call i was in full
blown labour and in a lot of pain well my mum phoned the hospital and she was still told if her
waters havent broken then theres not much we can do but my mum said no im bringing her down so when
we got there they started to settle me down and after about 30 mins the midwife finally came in but
then said im sorry but you dont fit our criteria so i was nagry bcuz i was in pain they still
hadent checked my babys heartbeat so i was made to walk 5cm dilated and in full labour to the next
ward were on my arrival they checked her heart beat and it was found to be very low and from this
point on it was all a blur i was rust in for a emergency c section and when i woke i was asking
were my baby was this was were the nurse left the room and my mum eneter she looked destroyed and
she looked and me and said im so sorry babe she didnt make it and i remember saying no i felt her
moving this morning no get my baby and at this point my partner entered the room and i just knew
then that she was telling the truth by his tear soaked face i screamed and houled like a dog and
that was when my brother brought my beatiful baby girl in to the room and i felt my heart explode
she was perfect she had loads of hair and looked just like her daddy in every way possilbe even down
tp the dimple on her chin we named her portia and had her weighed she was 7pnd 8ounz she was wat
the doctor called a fresh stillborn i never got to hear her cry or see wat colour her eyes were she
was my world and i had so many plans for her i miss her with all my heart but am very very glad i
got to hold her and to say goodbye
HELLO MY BABY GIRL I AM SO SORRY MUMMY HASNET BEEN IN TO LITE A CANDLE SHE HASENT BEEN ABLE TO GOT ON HER INTERNET I WA VERY MAD LOL I HOPE YOU HAVE BEEN A GOOD GIRL HUNNY AND I HOPE YOU LIKE YOUR NEW WINDMILSS AND SNW GLOBE THAT NANNY BROUGHT YOU I HAVE BEEN SAYIN GOOD NIGHT TO YOU AND GOOD MORNING AS I ALWAYS DO TO YOUR PICTURE AND A KISS I LOVE YOU LOADS AND MISS YOU LOTS MY JELLY TOTS MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY I HOPE YOU SLEEP GOOD WRAP UP WARM AND TUCK YOUR ANGEL WINGS AWAY ALL MY LOVE MUMMY LOVE YOU X X X X
Hello portia. just thought i'd leave ya a msg hunni. Make sure u r being a good girl, and make sure isaac is looking after you, cos i keep telling him to. And if he is being mean, just make sure ya tell his grandad and he will make sure he looks after ya. Lots of love, sam.xxxxxxxx
hello my baby girl i hope you are being good for every 1 up there tell them all we said hi and dnt you go getting a cheeky lil bugger like your mummy was wen she was younger hehe i hope your are happy and watching over mummy and daddy isent it time you sent us a brother or sister hehe im only playing my angel mummy knows that wen the time is right you will send 1 ...i miss you so much baby girl and just bcuz mummy and daddy arent crying all the time dosent mean we dnt ove you we do but we have to try and think of you and smile bcuz you were the most beautiful baby i had ever saw in my life hun and will always be my first born our nxt babay will be exactly that our nxt our second bcuz i am a mummy but to an angel and daddy is a daddy but to an angel a very speacial angel whom looks down on her mummy and daddy and makes sure there okay remember to look in on nanny and your uncles .... i miss you and love you so much hunny i never imaged losing a baby my baby would be so hard i used to hear of stories of parents losing children and used to always think no wouldnt happen to me ? but it did hunny and the pain in unbrearible and heart renching i would not wish this pain on any 1....? any way lil girl im gonna get going now i love you lots and lots my jelly tots be good and play nice all my love mummy and daddy x x x x x x x x x x x x x x love you all the stars x x x x x
hello my baby girl i hope you are being good up there and growing into a beautiful lil girl of which im sure you are i can only imagne how beautiful you are same as wen i first saw you , you are 6 months old today god baby its gone so quick but it seems a life time since i held you in my arms and said good bye and kissed your head and told you make sure you tell nanny to do your hair up there cuz it was so long its been so hard to try and move on with out you and thats all i can do is try and baby girl its so hard to i feel guilty i feel like i shouldnt want to try and move on but i think of you and realise that would want me to i dnt want to be watching over me cry every day i do still cry hunny but i have learnt to also smile wen i think of you .i love you so much people who havent got children ask wat the feeling is like and you can never explain the feeling that rushes through you its like and it never leaves you and every time i look at your picture of think of you its like you get that rush of love all over again i think of you every minute and every second of the day and i will for the rest of my life i miss you so much baby girl be good up there wont you and tell every 1 that your mummy said hi put your coat on hunny its a bit cold today love you lots my jelly tots love mummy x x x
Hiya
Hey, just come online quick to let you know ive just blown up the balloons to take to the cemetery. Ive written one for Portia! A nice pink balloon! STUPIDLY, i forgot that balloons wont stay upright unless you've got helium! LOL. Well stupid i know. But just gonna tie them all together and put them in the cemetery. Lots of love to you and Portia. Talk to you soon. Aly xxxx
Portia just thought i would leave u a msg. Make sure that u and isaac are good for his grandad and that u snuggle up tight and keep warm, as it is getting very cold at night now. please watch ova ur mommy and send her lots of floaty kisses. lots of love, sam.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hello
Hi, thankyou for you msg left on Maias website. Im sorry you lost your little Portia. It hurt so much, especcially when you know so many other people are hurting like you are. If you want to chat sometime, my email is redhead_aly@hotmail.co.uk
Lots of love to you, your family and little Portia
xxxxxx
good morning my princess i hope you had a wonderful nights sleep and rested your angel wings ready for today playing with all your angel friends ..i miss you so much hunny you will nearly be 6 months its gone so quick but at the same time it feels like i have been with out you for years and the pain still as raw as the first day i saw you every time i look at your picture i get that rush of love like the very first time i met my baby girl i hope and pray for you to come bk every day and that all this me and your daddy have been through was just a very very bad nightmare and that when we wake up you will be in your crib next to us but i know thats not going to happy and i have in a way startied to realise that but it hurts like mad i feel like my heart my mind and even ME is never gonna be the same and in a way im not cuz im a mummy now to an angel i hope you are okay up there hunny plz find sum kinda way of letting me know as thats 1 question that i always ask my self are you happy are you safe i hope you are my princess i hope its the most beautiful place any 1 has every seen that that you are having so much fun and being looked after by all the other loved ones up there i love you baby girl more than i can write down in words and miss you more and more each day people say time heals but its doesnt hunny it hurts more bcuz so many questions run through your mind like you would be or are nearly 6 months god wat i would do to have you here crawling and getting into everything and eating all the food in site making a mess of your lovely clothes ...? mummy is gonna go now hunny cuz im jut blabbering and i will be here all day i love you my princess love you lots like jelly tots all my love your mummy x x x xbe a good girl hunny xxx
hi, yes jessica is buried at coney hill, if u wanna chat anytime then my email addy is liccleimp@yahoo.com
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